Feb 21, 2025

Warm Turbulance - MGS


I have been experiencing some turbulence in my relationships with people who, I think, have not been too sensitive to me. But I’m not going to wear my heart on my sleeve here. Just a piece of my mind about how the experience has brought me into to some level of understanding. Like most of the people
I met and meeting, I used to respond to situations, mostly with my feelings.
I assembled my emotional life around the behavior of other people towards me, which empowers them to be more in control of my life. When someone stepped on my toe, I would instantly mutter vindictively, cuss that careless passer by and throw a venomous tiger look.
When someone lied to me, I told him to go to hell, so he could bring the devil a walking poop.
When someone said I looked horrible, I told her she looked like a hag. When someone commented I am too fat, I told her, you are the richest woman walking on earth with no amount of water in your body as you face like a dried bark. When someone breaks my heart, I also smashed his/hers.
But when someone gave me a piece of bread, I gave her something to drink. When I was told I looked good, I responded with a similar flattery. When someone made me laugh, I exerted effort to make the person happier. Remember my treatment towards you will be the result of how you treated me. Mirror reflect the same image.

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